Sometimes I wonder where the time goes and why it must go so quickly!! Today is the 10th of January....and my Christmas tree still stands in my living room. I really am not normally one to keep it up this long, and if I had my way, it would not be there! Life it seems, just gets incredibly busy at times and right now, we are in a busy time! With Emma ruling the house during the day and Zack and Jacob's crazy schedules ruling our evenings, it seems as though NOTHING gets accomplished! I am having way too much fun enjoying Emma while I have her all to myself during the days. I know that this time will go much faster then I want it to and I don't want to look back and have any regrets! When I had the boys it seems like such a blur looking back on it all. When Zack was born I was only home with him for 6 very short weeks before returning to work. I did not want to go back to work but at the time we felt like we could not afford for me to stay home. We got ourselves into a routine and had just started adjusting and what seemed like 2 seconds later I was (unexpectedly) pregnant with Jacob! Zack was just barely 4 months old when we realized I was pregnant. After struggling with infertility, any child that comes into our lives is an added blessing. We were scared to death wondering how we were going to manage with two babies under the age of 2 but somehow, we did manage. We just don't remember how LOL!!
The things that I see Emma do and just the time I get to spend with her one on one is so precious to me and I feel so blessed to be able to have this time with her. I kind of feel like the boys got cheated a little because with both of them running around, there was a constant chaos (there still is sometimes). When Zack was little tiny, I was pregnant with Jacob, so my energy was probably lower then normal, then when Jacob came along and Zack was STILL not sleeping through the night I REALLY had no energy! I was literally going from one baby to the next all day and all night long (I really don't know how mom's handle multiples) We were in survival mode, just trying to make it from one minute to the next. Now having Emma, and knowing in my heart that she is the last baby we will have, I am choosing to ENJOY my precious time with her! So...for now, my Christmas tree can stay in my living room, and the laundry can continue to pile up because these moments will be gone far to fast. Homework WILL get done, Zack will have a ride to scouts and back and Zack and Jacob WILL be at all of their basketball practices and games, and if you happen to come to my house...hopefully you will understand why my tree still stands...fully decorated~
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